Within that few days while waiting for them to be discharged I begin to realize that this is the time I've been waiting for. Thus that day changes my life dramatically. The lack of sleep mounted by anxiety, curiosity, excitement, worries and all sort of feelings start to go of slowly. I have created a human being! Wow...! I know everyone does it. No big deal right? It was a huge one for me, for my wife and her family as our child is the first grandchild in her family.
I chat with a friend, an old college who just recently got married who is way across the Atlantic, about the whole idea of having a baby in which I shared with him my experience and how it affects my life from every aspect. As when I asked him when is his turn...he told me that he is not ready for it. Well...neither am I. But if I waited and keep on waiting until I am fully ready I will never be ready to be a father. And to be honest...I don't think I was ready to be a husband when we decided to tie the knot. But my friend...nothing is a one hundred percent ready. If you are married...well...I suggest that having baby is a package deal that comes along with your marriage.
Yes I was scared and afraid of not being able to handle the enormous load of responsibility of being a father. But if someone else can do it...why can't I? I am not less than a human being than the others. I may be poorer but I am rich as human being. I believe I am a compassionate man who is willing to pour his kindness, love and commitment to a child and her mother. I know that I can be there for there within the best of my ability.
AND YES! I AM READY AS A MAN AND HUSBAND TO BECOME A FATHER.
God Bless...
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