3 months 3 weeks

3 months a 3 weeks gone. And two weeks since her mother goes back to work. Life is more complicated now. And yet Lorelai doesn't take bottle milk although we have been trying for almost two months. Really frustrating. Moreover she misses her mother a lot  and cries  like no other business. So during the day she is quiet and slowly she realizes that there is no sign of mommy's voice. Later in the afternoon she cannot bear it anymore and bust with a cry...a cry that sound like you are missing someone. It's really miserable seeing her like that. We end up crying together. I really hate this part...it's really tormenting.

She's very much insecure now about being left alone even for a second. You have to be with her every second or else she will be crying like nut. It is just amazing how baby can control our life. Especially to those who can't afford to let them crying. I can't do that and that's why I become the slave of my child.

Well...I guess life has to move on. I pray and hope she will change after turning four month next week. Be willing to take the top-up and stop missing mommy as much as she did. I really hope she can be as playable like she's playing with mommy. I miss listening to her babyish laugh during the day as she laugh a lot during the night playing with mommy. I miss listening to her little chatterbox that cosntantly saying something I don't understand but yet very entertaining. The only thing I can hear now is the sound of her voice asking me not to leave her alone or her voice calling for me if I am not within her eye sight or her cries when I failed to fascinate her. I need my baby back...but still I love you sweetheart and adore you with all of my heart.